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(koped from my blog haha)
it's hard not to feel sad when the computer keeps looping the same song that brings back so many memories. ahh but on the bright side, no more pancake face to stare at! (: like no more video-editing for the rest of my life, no more adobe premiere pro, no more living in the year of 2006. i think i'll miss the hair-tearing experiences of sitting in front of the comp adjusting all the coordinates, and those times when my ears nearly died trying to find suitable music tracks. aiyoh i ought to stop phd-ing. life needs to move on.
anyway! this shall be my april appreciation post (: there're so many people to thank, i don't know where to start from. i think i'll go by categories.
huangchengren:
amanda: my fellow shezhang! thanks so much for slogging it out with me for the past few months. all the highs and lows we went through (i'll never forget that particular incident of non-stop laughter outside b1-01) are definitely deeply imprinted in my memories.
bena: laoren! i'll miss all the frequent trips we made to coro, and all the snatching of plastic bags. thanks for all the guanxin and take good care of yourself too!
kaka: i don't really want to thank you for all the niao-ings, but despite all those, you've been a great friend to have (:
vera: LOL thanks for bringing so much noise to my kaigong places, and so much laughter too! i hope you stop biting people hurhur.
xiaoxi: thanks for making so much noise all the time! and all those entertaining moments when you bully damien haha. (:
jasper: thanks for helping me buy strepsils (: and all the concern when i get pissed off hahaha.
moxiang: 157 ftw haha. no thanks for all your horniness and niao-ing! hehh. you've been a wonderful bus partner to chat with, and thanks for helping me find music (:
norine: thanks for all the encouragements (: and the really really nice puzzle (:
nicholas: emokid! i'll always remember your amusing moments snatching cans from everyone in the control room!
daodus: ying, bahchormee and lunhui ftw! (: (:
weipin: whooo auntie! thanks for being such a good cuichang (: even though you missed hongxingdajiang!
jiasheng: whooooo A16! thanks for being such a good cuichang too (: you ought to stop niao-ing me ._.
apms: liangzhou and cheryl! thanks for all the help rendered when we needed it, like during the photo shoot! continue being the funny you that you both are (:
pms: jonlee and lishian! thank you so much for making everything possible.
juniors: well done! the effort that each of you put in have really touched me alot (:
seniors: thank you for the constant support that you guys give us! (:
08S61:
alena: for being the wonderfullest classmate ever (with constant supplies of sweets :D)
yenpin: for the being the ever so cute her! nice to have you as a tuition mate too!
xizi: even though you're always very noisy (: thank you so much for being such a friend, bringing a lot of laughter into my boring school life. (:
chunhing: i don't know to put you under huangchengren or 08s61 lol. but in any other case, thanks for being such a wonderful classmate. all the long walks and chats, and also all the help you give to me during cca (:
chentong: for being a nice daddy hahaha (:
fangzhou: for the constant entertainment that you provide! :D
weileong: not thanking you for being such a blur CT rep and losing the receipt and order form, but thanks for coming to support huangcheng (:
renqi: thank you for all the funny moments in class (:
jolyn: thanks for being such a horny labmate/person who stands in front of me during assembly! you never fail to make me laugh (:
huiwei, yuanhai, yunxian, yating: thanks so much for PW! (:
friends
hongye: thanks for coming down to support huangcheng! (: and for the flower and chocolate too (: though i got sore throat now so i can't eat it :\
xT: so sorry i mixed up your tickets!! and thanks for helping me order my sodagreen album :D
faustie: hi marmy :D thanks for coming down to support huangcheng even though it was raining so heavily :D
yi min: YIMINNNNNNNN XD -pokes-
jiaying: thanks so much for coming for huangcheng! and for your tablet! omg :D
rebecca: for all the support and listening ears you've been providing me with (:
and of course
my parents: for the unwavering support they've given me over the past month. all the understanding (:
there're some thank yous that remain unsaid. (: leave them for next time bah (:
- Location:home
- Mood:
calm - Music:范玮琪 ~《一颗心的距离》
总觉得，身旁的人的烦恼越来越…离谱。有时很容易解决的事情，会被想得很复杂离奇，然
太多事情太可惜了。就好像我和你之间的友谊一样，也许因为我的缘故，已经毁不成形了。多
无论如何，不管你接不接受，我已经决定继续走下去了。一个人自己走，会很孤独。但是这
我相信笑的力量。我不会再哭了。
- Location:at home
- Mood:
drunk - Music:阿桑~叶子
wretch somehow seems to be throwing tantrums and refuses to let me log in. so i'm back in LJ again :\
yes yes yes yes yes my PW is OVER! (: WHOOOO. haha.
now for some emo rants because i am quite emo mm. LOL. i don't know really, but somehow it is at times when i really need someone to talk to that i realise that i am actually always alone. and the pain from realising that makes me want to sleep. HAHAHA sleep and go for class dinner WHOO. siao i feel like a pig but nevermind cos pw is OVER and i have ENOUGH REASON to sleep considering i slept at 1 last night! dont ask me how OP went though, i think it's quite ... screwed LOL. :D haha can't be helped leh. i just ain't born to be a public speaker LA.
sai i was supposed to be emo. >:\ whatever lah haha i am going to sleep. it's raining heavily outside and with some thunder too. perfect for sleeping in. and i do hope i wake up at 4 plus to go for class dinner. no no no 61 people aren't going to eat up my share of the dinner leh :D
- Location:pigsty
- Mood:
ecstatic - Music:戴佩妮 ~ 防空洞
uhh yeah, the promo results just aren't too good. :\ i don't want to talk about them. makes me EMO pleh. haha.
and there's almost nothing else to talk about already! other than my sudden craze over pokemon on my phone because KARENE IS SERIOUSLY DEPRIVED OF ANY OTHER FORM OF ENTERTAINMENT IN SCHOOL! :\ alena can testify. we swop phones every now and then to play phone games lorh.
ps: alena is addicted to SUDOKU. whao!
oh yes, to any member of the gang who reads this (you are all supposed to hahahaha):
who's available to go cycling on sunday! (: i know all of you badly need the exercise HAHA.
- Mood:
okay
now some other people are drifting away. i don't know why! as the stupid old saying goes, 有得必有失. i'm like, pissed at the fact that i'm trying hard to mend old relationships and yet i'm losing some other few in the course. so it's my fault that, when i feel emotional, i don't really talk much. so it's my fault that, when i have a thousand and one things on my mind, i don't really talk much. yeah yeah i know, everything IS my fault because i can't find another source to blame.
yay now my favourite line is,"AIYAH I DON'T KNOW LAH." which is true. i don't know too many things. mugging takes the life out of me. i'm like, too busy looking at my notes to know what's happening around me, so busy i don't know what's wrong. i bet people just think that i'm plain weird and being an ass by not talking to them. BUT I DON'T WANT TO CARE ANYMORE. that's it. I DON'T CARE. i cant afford to. just go on thinking in that manner, nothing's stopping you.
i lurve rebecca because she always listen to me talk crap online. or through phone. i always tell her so much crap i wonder how come i have the energy to generate them. [/edit]
now now, back to my books. you didn't see anything.
- Location:being damn pissed off in the pc room.
- Mood: blah
- Music:孙悟空（五月天）
- Mood:
angry
<27th May>
somehow kids just have this wonderful ability to make me pissed off ofr 5 minutes then cheering me up after that. they're just that forgetful. and i wish i possess that.
anyway today is the 1st day (out of 2) of SAVE-I-WILL camp! i must confess, that i haven't been doing a great job at shadowing. haha but seriously lah i didn't see the need to shadow maoyang :D i bet he was traumatised when weiseng asked me to do so. right so the whole day i was like roaming about from venue to venue rather aimlessly. i'm quite amused at the fact that the group rebecca's leading decided to name themselves REBECCA'S FAVOURITE 8. but there're only 7 little kiddies in her group! so i deduced that the 8th favourite person of rebecca would be dominic 'cos he was the co-leader for that group :D and the kids are ever so kaypoh.
so cute!dominic must have this secret dislike for children, 'cos he's totally afraid of them when they were enthusiastically waving at him.
<28th May> [titled: Dominic's fav. 8 (including Rebecca!)]
Ignore the title, there's no link haha.
Today ended on a random note. Oh wells that's for me anyway. I swear I spent at least half the time in school in the toilet washing palattes with seniors andrea and mabel XD haha.
Everything was quite chaotic today haha. Maoyang totally can't do much to the kids 'cos they don't listen to him :D Weiseng still works with kiddies better, i think. At least they bother listening eh. I wonder what's gonna happen next year XP
Ok I shan't be so messy. Shall go through everything in order before I lose my train of thought again.
So! For once MELESA reached school earlier than I did. But I wasn't late so yep! Haha and I was being damn oolong when I chionged into LT2 early in the morning to have weiseng tell me to go to LT1 O.o accidentally chionged into the SEF venue hee. So I was roaming about with Melesa for quite a while, trying to pacify the group 3 kids, telling them that Dominic would somehow appear. Kids can be wonderful to work with, even though they seriously make you angry with them sometimes. Oh then Mel and I went to wait for Yi Min right before Maoyang gave his briefing :D OMG I SO <3 MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT LIN YI MIN!!!!! <3<3<3
The talk given by the invited speaker was quite interesting. It just dawned upon me that I was laughing with Mel and Dominic more than I was listening to him though. Basically we were just amusing ourselves by scaring Mel with all the food that was made from insects. And I told Mel that fried mealworms tasted like oats and fries :D which is kind of true! I guess that does gross Mel out a bit.
After that the 2 of us went out to Coronation to get food and I sat at the steps listening to Mel explain all the WoW stuff to me. I think WoW is really WoW and now I think I understand why they can sell it so expensive-ly and still retain their 68% market share.
OOH! haha when we went back we were just in time for the skits presented by the kids. I have to say that they were quite entertaining really. ah and we were supposed to have treasure hunt after that but the whole thing seriously screwed up after the rain and lack of briefing lol. so everyone just camped at LT 1 to play hangman! yay so fun! then mel the spoilt brat decided she wanted to go home. then she kept saying and saying but she still stayed around. then halfway through my phone RANG. omg haha limyi asked me to go to the bookshop to help him pay for paintbrushes. I was like OMGWTH hahahahah. then we spent quite long in the book shop counting the paintbrushes, making sure we had enough and all. AND I WANT TO CLAIM MY 14 DOLLARS LEH! AHH. i dunno where the receipt is le );
haha helping out at the workshop is quite fun~ preparations went on with a bit of complains and all, but at least we got to see how clean the classroom was before the kids came in. Actually it wasn't that bad when they came in to do their masterpieces, at least all the spills that i expected didn't occur. but mel was still freaked out (OMG SHE WAS STILL AROUND!) by them somehow. weirdo lah. then i kept trying to tell the kids that rebecca and dominic were __(fill in the blank yourself)___ haha. then lincoln came along halfway to add some oil. so later when i really got quite bored (and lincoln was talking to rebecca) i launched my second attempt at scandalising rebecca hahaha. you can't imagine how many times I've done that since sec 3.
oh then after everything i went with andrea and mabel to wash palattes! felt so accomplished after that omg haha. and i was super amused when the bell rang after i was cleaning up the excess paint in the toilet, 'cos when i entered the toilet the bell also rang. which meant that I was trapped in the toilet for ... 1/2 an hour! haha. the palattes are in a quite clean state, I'm proud to say :D
haha that was my day LOR! :D anyway weiseng is very auntie and he left school looking like some ahsoh who just did a lot of shopping.
++++++++++ THIS IS A FUNNY ADD ON +++++++++++
EVERYONE KNOWS MEL IS AFRAID OF INSECTS AND THAT IS HOW KARENE INSTITUTE OF INSECTOLOGY CAME ABOUT! main point is! today i managed to successfully scare mel! :D i took this long strip of onion skin i found on the table and wanted to show it to mel cos i was super bored. then i was like trying to get her to see it, but somehow she was quite apprehensive, so i decided to try to trick her and tell her that i was holding on to a worm. the next moment mel was at the other end of the classroom! so fast! and she kept trying to kick me. heee so loser lor! TALK TO THE L, MEL.
- Location:at home with wangzai ballcakes
- Mood:
lonely - Music:MY SPEAKERS DIED
- Mood:
horny
KARENE'S DEAR BLOG!
is constantly updated so read there :D
- Mood:
cranky
today i was a good girl who gave up her seat to a lady carrying her baby.
today i wrote to alena on a post-it: 人心不可测也。she replied: 知人知面不知心。which is totally true. the nagging feeling within me hasn't dissipated, and i'm doubting that it'll go off anytime soon. meanwhile i shall just content myself with the idea of commiting suicide after receiving my math and cll test grades. i really hope i can scrape a 35/50 for cll. i am not pining any hopes on math, i know i screwed up. spent freaking 5 minutes trying to breathe properly, then made a hell lot of careless mistakes.
today i scolded mel for no reason. or rather i was being very unreasonable over the phone. sorry mel, not in the best mood.
today was council president elections q and a session. interesting, i must say. that reminds me, i'm running for 中文学会黄城摄影组长 and LEP council 总务。surprising not?
today there was a lot of talk about portfolio. which i think is quite redundant. how many people can say they aren't doing what they're doing for the sake of portfolio, even if it's that 1%? i started wondering if i ran for 组长 and 总务 because of portfolio. i decided i did, to 30%. the other 70% is just for the fun of it. or rather to enjoy what i like to do. (hey isn't that the answer everyone gives!)
today there was green club. preparing for the upcoming clean and green week! :D i like green club. support ASOP (adopt-spring-onion-project)!!! i <3 the onions! it took us so much effort to plant them in, but we had lots of fun. come adopt spring onions! we take care of them for you! :D and you get a certificate for owning them! why not :D
today the phrase that kept floating in my mind was LOOK CLOSER. it's the theme for this year's clean and green week. tomorrow you'll find out more. but what i was thinking was not about green club, it was about random happenings of the day. basically just reflecting upon my day.
today my windows media player keeps playing emo songs (i put it on shuffle). like i'm already not emo enough.
today i've been quite energetic considering i only slept 4 hours in the morning.
today mengyu brought bunny ears to school and told us we were going to wear those for HAT THAT. seriously, i'm not hatting a pair of bunny ears. NO. the idea is good but... not very feasible? majority of the class doesn't really like the ears.
today i'm quite upset.
- Mood:
sad
大家一起来欣赏作品吧！非CLL的同胞们，不要气馁，你总是可以向任何一位友善的CL
财政曰：璇以收钱，夙遭闵凶。开工一周，财库空空。追人数天，仍无钱收。复印aunt
伏惟本校以道治众人，凡在同学，都必还钱；况财库空，特为尤甚。曾经有钱可取，笔记完
璇今囊中仅剩十九有九，需缴费用=∞，是以同学花天酒地之日长，清理债务之日短也。璇
wooohooo this is the random piece (ok not so random afterall) done by alena, renqi and i (with contributions from chunhing and weileong)!! we're all quite proud of it. :D
- Mood:
jubilant
anyway the test is... :| doesn't need to be elaborated right?
i think mrs tam is super adorable leh. today she was walking around and asking if she could collect our assignment, then i asked her if i could hand it in tomorrow. she gave me a quizzical look and asked me why. so i blatantly told her i hadn't done my work. so she asked why again. and i propped up my notes on my table. she looked at the poor thick stack of highlighted notes and gave me a smile. the kind of smile that makes you feel quite happy somehow, and less guilty. one day i should take a photo of her.
ct session was amusing! mr tan as usual is amusing. shan't talk about him. oh and nanjie is back. you should have seen everyone's faces. seriously i think my msn nick is super applicable to the predicament 08s61 is undergoing now. 原本的太平盛世，如今已天下大乱。ok maybe it's just the evil evil me. but then i've a feeling i've got at least half the class backing me up in the thinking.
anyway i think we shouldn't exploit our mortals. haha :D
- Mood:
crappy - Music:梦在手里(蔡淳佳)
前些日子，大家都轮流着尝试了不能说话的滋味。
不知道怎么回事，可能是风水轮流转，现在我的喉咙又在作痛了。
呵呵这是取笑人太多的结果吗？
yesterday i spent one whole day in ACS(i) at the PRESERVE PLANET EARTH conference. i would say it was quite fun, although that also meant i sacrificed my time for cll-mugging. oh and i went for dinner with rebecca (i just had dinner with you the day before!), melesa, faustina, eric and alex(ander). haha sometimes it's just amusing to see how 6 people take super long to decide where they want to go and eat. and anyway we ended up at tiong bahru plaza. we laughed a great lot, the girls. poor guys decided we were seemingly crazy and decided to leave earlier. now, i bet rebecca must have gotten faustina out of her digestive system.
昨天回家的时候我搭 238 巴士。238 号是 loop service，所以我平时是很省时间地下车、过天桥。不然的话，我大可让巴士转一大
- Mood:
i sound like a frog
whao that was my declaration for the day. seriously, i know sleeping in late is bad for health and it makes me lethargic the next day. and now the problem is, i don't know why i sleep so late. ):
anyway cll test is in 2 days time, yet i have not finished studying for it. and tmr i'll be in ACSI for the whole day. sunday we have class outing. god bless me.
- Mood:
stressed
early in the morning i got out of house feeling super frustrated 'cos i couldn't find my notes for chenqingbiao. then i realised it was inside my file, like in the math section. and i started memorising the ever so lovely chenqingbiao on the bus, with a lot of ppl thinking that i was crazy.
then during econs lesson i was feeling super high and tired at the same time. like i know whatever she's talking about and i want to answer questions and i'm prepared! but then she dao me cos i did my homework. nevermind :D
PE WAS SO FUN! haha we ran 2.4. trial run was super lah. i ran 3 rounds with alena and chunhing, then lost sight of alena. chunhing sustained a horrendous stitch (as she claims it's the most painful one) so she only ran 1.2. bleh, then i ran the rest of 1.2 alone. i've never run a single 2.4 alone. sec 1 and sec 2 i ran with the class, then sec 3 i ran with rebecca and xinrong, sec 4 with the class. then sure got someone called leejiaying aka my pacemaker around me. oh dear my english is linear to my thinking speed, decreasing at a proportional rate. and so anyway running alone is... strange. i had to use my PI 精神 to drive myself forward. haha cos i did PI until one plus, struggling to stay awake :D
math assignment was tickling. we discussed answers :D
i kept eating big cookies today. for no reason obviously.
CLL lesson cum 补课 was imba. no one fell asleep. there was this compellation to stay awake i guess.
yay and i had dinner with my mortal :D
lol im getting so tired i cant even type properly. nvm. shall go and sleep soon.
- Mood:
tired
but well, i am happy.
eh yisheng just told me to go sleep. that's a tempting idea.
oh i'm hungry now. I WANT A COOKIE.
- Mood: cheerful
Subject Mark (%) Grade Rank Percentile *
1 General Paper H1 - D 500 49%
2 Physics H2 - NA/Exempted 0 0%
3 Economics H2 - A 299 64%
4 Chinese Language & Literature H2 - S 33 3%
5 China Studies in Chinese H1 - A 4 70%
HAHAHAHA I'M LIKE SUPER LOUSY AT ECONOMICS. AND WHAT'S THIS? 12/50 IS STILL NOT THE LOWEST FOR CLL3. :D :D :D hehhehhh, i think a D for GP means that i scraped a pass for my comprehension :D
seriously i don't know where the problem lies now. whether it's in me, or in her. (no not you rebecca, not you. trust me :D) someone tell me? YEOZHENGHANG OMG SHE COLLECTED HER BAG AFTER I LEFT ): what am i supposed to think huh?
i don't know why i'm alternating between my 2 blogs, but both are alive and well. now that econs test is over thoughts come streaming back into my mind again. really i don't think i should think so much because thinking so much leads to nowhere. today during 张薇's CLL3 lesson we were all giving our views on what 命运 was all about. then weileong brought up a point about death. yep i guess at every point in time people think about death. i think about it whenever there's a funeral at the void deck. but then i realise, no matter how much i think, i will always reach a 未知数 and i don't know how to go about knowing it. and since it's a 未知数 i shouldn't spend so much time on it.
and now i find out we have 5 people running for 摄长。i wonder if i can actually make it, considering that the other 4 running for the position are really capable. amanda and sufen are like the super imba camera people, while xinyi and chunhing are the hardworking ones. well, i'm a slack member :D perhaps then i should just tear up the form. rawr now i think i suck. i can never seem to make decisions for myself. or is my self esteem getting lower?
- Mood: somehow hyper, but not happy
- Music:旅行的意义（陈绮贞）
but somehow something is pushing me away from my homework again.
i guess my brain shouldn't be piled up with too many things, or else i'll suffer from brain constipation. and mind you, that's a bad illness to suffer from, when you're trying to get all the things out of your brain but you fail to do so. and the worst part is, eating more vegetables doesn't help.
somehow everyone seems mugger-ish. i should be ashamed of myself.
homework has this super great repulsion. the sight of it either makes me sleepy or sian. and when i'm sian i will go away and watch tv non-stop for 3 hours. when that happens my mum will complain that 电视机要爆炸了 and 电视机上面那三只猪(some random displays) 要变烧猪了。then she'll ask me to do my homework. when i turn to my computer, she'll say that 电脑要爆炸了 and 这个月的电费会很高。then she'll chase me off to do my work. most probably i'll end up sleeping though.
i know i can't run away from it. but i don't want to face it either.
and after some typing i have decided to go back to the books and MUG/STUDY before i flunk that test tomorrow. there is a high possibility of me failing my physics lecture test already, i don't think i can afford to fail my econs lecture test.
now brain, i need you to clear MEM and let me load you with the concepts of demand and elasticity concepts related to it.
- Location:at home.
- Mood:
depressed - Music:改变自己（王力宏）
seriously, today was just spent in school listening to council campaigns, trying to stay awake through lectures, doing rxh's work and thinking about stuff. i've gathered that people don't really look like how they actually are deep down. on the surface one might look damn innocent, but deep down she/he is a sly one. i really am quite wary of people who already have like the rest of their lives planned out for themselves. i think they are very clear of what they want, so they do things in certain ways to satisfy those wants. and these certain ways they use, i don't particularly agree with. i don't know, but i'm losing trust in people. or rather, i'm disillusioned about them.
people always come and go, that's a fact. but sometimes, what scares me is that they don't leave physically, but emotionally you feel super far from them. the gap is just, frustrating for me. i'm not one to embrace (-ve) change in people easily, so when people do change i get a while to get over it. i guess my way of getting over such matters is to avoid communication of any sort with these people. like i've told rebecca before, the change in her irks me because she's drifting away. i could jolly well forget her as an old friend and treat her like a new one, but the mechanisms don't work this way. not for me, at least. the memories, the bonds with old friends are not so easy to forge.
i don't like how people ignore my existence. or maybe i've really mastered the art of invisibility. it sucks when you're talking and no one listens to you. you may think that me, being an only child, must have gone through a lot of talking-to-oneself and hence wouldn't mind. in case you really do think that way, i've got to say that i really prefer talking to someone who can talk. you know, teddy bears don't provide replies.
i keep jumping from point to point i don't see the point of this whole post anymore. this is the problem of blogging, you just type out what is in your mind at the point in time. no coherence, no linkage.
oh yes i need to learn how to eat doughnuts without spilling the chocolate filling :P
- Location:emo-ing in a room
- Mood:
listless - Music:I DON'T WANT MUSIC
浚鑫，你认得吗？ :D
- Location:在新加坡的某个角落
- Mood:
drained - Music:任意门（杨丞琳）
